Zuzanna


RESILIENCE

Posted on January 28, 2008

Thoughts about the unexpected changes
in her family life bombarded her brain.
She wanted to die.
Her beloved and only sister was gone,
on the first day of a New Year.
The disbelief,and the grief,
pierced her like a cruel,
well aimed lancer.

The loss of her only blood relative
Traumatized her.
She asked why
She had to experience
The loss of the twin sister
She loved so much.

Her brain became numb –
She thought about her every day.
She could even smell
The perfume she wore.

Day after day
she thought to herself –
I do not want to live without her,
I want to die.
It was the only thing
she had on her mind.
It was extremely hard to know
that the twin she loved so deeply
she would never see again.

How much she wished
She could have her back
only God knows.
But in reality
No one can turn back the clock
or reverse time.
The trauma changed her drastically.
It tormented her,twisted her
and murdered her soul,
cruelly and slowly
deliberately,each lonely day.

Life went on
but the healing process was slow.
Even the help of family and friends
did not raise her spirits.

The support she needed to cope with this,
the fatal loss in improving the vision
And resilience to accept the fact
that her twin sister would not be back,
coping with such traumatic loss,
the stress and tears have been too much.

Tears kept flowing from her eyes.
This was the most difficult and adverse time.
She wrote pages and letters
to tell her twin how much she loved her
and missed her every day.
So much strength was needed
to conquer the adversity in life
and be able to live happily again
after losing someone she loved.
This was the hardest
And most difficult in her life
knowing how helpless she was.

Only precious memories
And pictures remain
From that time.
Perhaps she could travel
to a resting place – to light a candle
or visit the Ocean – to write ‘I love you’
In the sand – where the waves
Will wash away the words of her final goodbye.
Improving resilience lessens the grief
that keeps coming back.
With the help of God,
It will heal the wound in her broken heart.

Dedicated to Kristy in Loving Memory
of Her Twin Sister

© 2008 Zuzanna

Last edited by Zuzanna on February 8, 2008, 12:35 am


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3 responses to “RESILIENCE”

  1. (A lot of work you did here, thinks I…)
    Sounds like a personal experience, or one you have intimate knowledge of. The loss of…a loved one, is a life defining experience. I hope the write was a release for you.

    Thoughts about the unexpected changes
    in her family life bombarded her brain.
    She wanted to die.
    Her beloved and only sister was gone,
    on the first day of a New Year.
    The disbelief
    And the grief was enormous.

    ("enormous". Hmmm….It’s okay, but I wonder if you could have strengthened this. Example: "The disbelief,and the grief, pierced her like a cruel, well aimed lance".) (No, that’s a horrible example. But maybe you get the idea. Something a little more creative than merely "enormous")

    The loss of her only blood relative
    Traumatized her.
    She asked why
    She had to experience
    The loss of the twin sister
    She loved so much.

    Her brain became numb –
    She thought about her every day.
    She could even smell
    The perfume she wore.

    Day after day
    she thought to herself –
    I do not want to live without her,
    I want to die.
    It was the only thing
    she had on her mind.
    It was extremely hard to know
    that the twin she loved so deeply
    she would never see again.

    How much she wished
    She could have her back
    only God knows.
    But in reality
    No one can turn back the clock
    or reverse time.
    The trauma changed her drastically.
    It tormented her soul.
    ("it tormented her soul" maybe an element of cliche there? It’s too easy. I wonder if you could give it a little extra twist. Example:
    "it tormented her
    twisted her
    and murdered her soul,
    cruelly and slowly
    deliberately,
    each lonely day.")

    Life went on
    but the healing process was slow.
    Even the help of family and friends
    did not raise her spirits.

    The support she needed to cope with this,
    the fatal loss in improving the vision
    And resilience to accept the fact
    that her twin sister would not be back,
    coping with such traumatic loss,
    the stress and tears have been too much.
    ("have"? maybe better: "HAD")

    Tears kept flowing from her eyes.
    This was the most difficult and adverse time.
    She wrote pages and letters
    to tell her twin how much she loved her
    and missed her every day.
    So much strength was needed
    to conquer the adversity in life
    and be able to live happily again
    after losing someone she loved.
    This was the hardest
    And most difficult in her life
    knowing how helpless she was.

    Only precious memories
    And pictures remain
    From that time.
    Perhaps she could travel
    to a resting place – to light a candle
    or visit the Ocean – to write ‘I love you’
    In the sand – where the waves
    Will wash away the words of her final goodbye.
    Improving resilience lessens the grief
    that keeps coming back.
    With the help of God,
    It will heal the wound in her broken heart.

  2. HI, Francis

    Thank you for the comment and the suggestions. I have incorporated the corrections and seems looking much better. I am generally gentle person so I could not think of a very strong words to emphasis my writing.
    Well this was rather a challenging write.

    Thank you for taking the time to evaluate.

    With appreciation

    Zuzanna

  3. What a wonderful poem, Zuzanna.
    This is a fond tribute to a really good friend of yours and mine, and I think she will love it.
    A truly heartwarming poem from a heart-rending loss… with which pain I can now associate.

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