Category: My Search for God and Meaning

  • Beyond the Garden gate

  • Smoke, and lenses. Tiny spirit, thick fog.

    Smoke, and lenses. Tiny spirit, thick fog. There is much that I, a tiny mud worm spirit, fail to understand.  I step softly through new portals of thought, humbly, respectfully, as one always seeking a teacher. Or on the look-out. For a better, more knowledgeable man. I love to probe new questions. Or old ones, in […]

  • Luminescent, you

    May 11,2020 Luminescent, you. It’s funny how you waltzed into my life, so softly. It was spring, I remember, when I first saw you. I was oiling a gun. I gasped, and held my breath.  I was hoping so, that you would stay with me. Part of me wanted to plead with you, like a shy […]

  • Crossroads Moment

      Crossroads Moment   There was a time, decades long, I tried to fill my mind. I ceaselessly crammed all kinds of noisy cr*p in there. Now I’m often trying to empty the conceited bastard. That… just seems a whole lot harder. Learning the systems on, say, an AS355F1, twin turbine helicopter takes time. But […]

  • A cold, dark, wintery night

    It’s a cold, dark, wintery night. The wind tears furiously around my isolated, ancient, wooden cabin. Rain spatters staccato on the roof. Somewhere in the distance, a poor dog, tied up cruelly outside, howls his abandoned loneliness. My old pooch, by comparison, is snoring peacefully (and rather loudly) beside me on the carpet. Cozy-comfortable, and […]

  • The Great Mystery

      The Great Mystery “Good morning, Great Spirit “. I have not finished my first coffee yet. On my lap, a faithful old dog. Only hopped up a minute ago. Already fast asleep. Snoring. It’s a quiet morning. Pale blue, wintery sky. Not a breath of wind. Temperature hovering just above freezing. Frost. The early […]

  • On Out-of-body Experiences

    On Out-of-body-experiences and ‘Dual-togetherness’ (posted in GAB group, ‘The Great Cosmic Kindness’)  (12-11-2019) Some interesting insights & comments were made, (thank you) and this subject cropped up. I’m no authority or anything like that, but when I was younger, for me, it was an almost fairly ‘commonplace’ experience. Inevitably, it was peaceful. Very gentle, if you […]

  • Floater Me

      FLOATER ME I used to get this dream. I had it hundreds of times. It got to the stage where I know I would pretty well “groan in my dream”. A dreamed “Oh-no-not-this-dream-again” type groan.  Frustrating. It was always the same. I was in the middle of this hot, sun soaked, yellow desert, digging away […]

  • The Matchstick

    Posted in The Great Cosmic Kindness – Group @Ute   The Matchstick You said:  “I am bitter.” The Quiet Spirit, wandering around the dark planet, encountered a fervent, passionate soul, and smiled softly. “And what are you”, he asked the Match Stick. The Match Stick drew himself proudly up to his full height. All one-and-a-half inches. […]

  • In Saturn’s Patient Shadow

        In Saturn’s patient shadow Shielded from the Sun’s glare I lingered for a while Mischievously, Reflecting on the sunlit byways As yet, untraveled Where Man, one day May gingerly, Set foot. Soaking in the Rings And saturated in immensity I’m delighted to see And hear, and sense The Great Cosmic Kindness A latent, […]